A poem to myself…
I’m sitting here in silence as the sun comes up
Morning meditation, coffee in my cup
I close my eyes, take a deep breath
The demons are calling me into the darkness, I see the depths of death
I search deep within, I won’t let them pull me down into the abyss
They shout hard, I fight harder , there has to be a meaning to all of this
I wonder what would happen if my soul flew away
My identity would be gone, my body a stray
Life is filled with emotions, I see them move through me like a fierce battle of the seas
Each wave takes me under as I fight through my insecurities
The waves are filled with years of pain, anger, shame, and guilt
I fight harder than I’ve ever fought, as I feel the waves wash away the life I once built
I stand on the shore watching the sunrise
It’s beautiful here as tears run down my eyes
I’m shaking now as I open my heart and surrender to feel
Pain is a gentle reminder that provides us strength and the courage to heal
It’s scary here, as I feel things I’ve never felt
I held my daughter close this morning.. my heart melt
This is 36 and I am letting passion and purpose bleed from my soul