Asleep

It’s time to wake up but I keep my eyes closed for the moment

Block out the noise form the world, I am my greatest opponent

Hiding in anger, fear, and limiting beliefs with a heavy heart

Inside and outside, the world I see falls apart

Parts of me feel lost, exhausted, misread

Pain has frozen me in time, I can’t find courage to get out of bed

Afraid of what is haunting me, I find ways to bypass my pain

Not today I say to myself, my words I cannot contain

I open up my eyes and see darkness standing directly over me

The heaviness I feel is a reflection of my responsibility

I am not what happened to me, I am what I choose to see

Is the price of holding on worth my misery

This is never easy, nothing worth having in life ever is

But the wisdom and strength I gain from growth outweigh a life of staying asleep

For a moment I wonder what life would look like without darkness following me around

My body would be an empty soul, no where to be found

Darkness is my admission to life, and it’s not cheap

He follows me with each breath, reminds me to never stay asleep

If the end is death, and everything else in life is in between,

I’d rather pour my heart and soul out in these words, than stay asleep and unseen